Freedom

Eyelids flutter,

Lips part.

Breath drawn,

Lungs inflate.

Eyes dart,

Mouth smiles.

Heart leaps,

Life begins again.

Every single day is a gift,

Every breath a precious treasure.

Don't live in fear,

Embrace the future.

Hope for the best,

Don't look back.

Remember who you are,

A precious child of God.

So many reasons to hope,

So few reasons to give up.

Breathe in deep,

Take it all in.

Bask in the sunlight,

Prize the chill wind.

Savor the taste,

Enjoy the ride.

Life is good,

May it always stay.

Hope for tomorrow,

Learn from yesterday,

Live in today.

-This for everyone who struggles with depression, and has overcome those dark thoughts. Remember and savor your freedom from the darkness. Enjoy life to the fullest and don't let the hard times get you down.-

Invisible

I know you don't mean it,
I know you won't care,
But it still hurts when you don't see me.

I know that we're over,
And I know I've no right,
But I see the way you flirt with them,
And it still hurts me inside.

I'm the girl who smiles and laughs during the day, then breaks down at night.
I'm the one who's hyper at lunch, but sobs alone at night.
I'm the girl everyone looks at but nobody sees.
I'm nothing but invisible, miserable me.


- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

I have a secret. I pretend like my depression is worse than it really is just so it'll scare him and he'll show that he cares.

I would rather have loved and lost over and over again for an eternity than to spend even half of this lifetime completely loveless. Even the shortest amount of time spent in love is worth far more than a lifetime safe from heartache.

Punches?

I'm slowly but surely learning to roll with the punches that life has been dealing me. In between the punches, I'm enjoying life to the best of my ability by not taking the small things for granted. And while I may end up beat up and worn out by the end of this, at least I can say I never ducked a punch; I took it and dealt with it. So love life, revel in the small things, and don't let a bad hand get ya down

Have You Ever Wondered?

Have you ever wondered why?

Why this life is all we're given?

Why what we're given in this life makes it so hard?

Why when something good is given to us, it's ripped away all too soon?

Even if you don't wonder, I do.

I wonder why he lied.

I wonder why our love was so short.

I wonder what would have happened if he'd given us a chance.

I wonder if I should say something...

If I should tell him that I still think we could work,

That even though it was rough we could survive.

But then I realize that that's exactly what I can't do.

Because even though I wonder day after day

What we might have had he allowed us a chance,

I know that I can be myself all on my own.

I know that I don't need him.

I know that there is more to life than having a man.

And though he may wonder day after day, or not,

I will never wonder about one thing: myself.

Life.

Pain is one of life's inevitabilities.

It shows up when we least expect it.

And because we try so hard to avoid pain,

We don't always know how to deal with it.

But avoiding it is the worst thing you can do.

Avoiding life's pain only puts it off,

And then it builds and builds until you can't deny it any longer.

Trust.

This is what can get us through anything that life could possibly throw at us.

Trusting those who love us the most.

Trusting that even though they might not know what to say,

They can always just be there for you.

But trust is also a double-edged sword.

Trust can so easily lead to pain.

And then you're right back where you started.

All the pain that's caused by trust,

All the trust that's needed to get you through the pain.

Sometimes I wonder if it's even worth it.

And then someone comes along who makes me remember;

Remember why it's worth it to give life one more chance.

Because even though this world is full of pain and sorrow,

There are so many moments of bliss, joy and peace to be had.

Thoughts.

Why?

Why do I spend every second of every day coaching myself into happiness?

I spend countless hours dreaming,

Only to wake and find I don't like life's bleak reality.

But in those few moments of precious bliss,

When I'm still halfway between dream and reality,

I feel like the world is mine to conquer,

That everything in this life will be laid at my feet.

That no matter what happens,

Whether this boy likes me or this boy doesn't,

That I don't need anyone else's approval.

That I don't need other people to make me happy.

In those few moments,

I can truly see what life has to offer me.

And then it's gone.

The stark bleakness of reality drags me screaming back to life.

And I go through my days fighting despair,

Fighting that ever present darkness,

The darkness which is always pulling,

Always searching for a way to drag me into the abyss.

But in the end,

It's those few moments of perfect bliss that keep me going.

Those precious seconds of rightness are my redeeming hope.

And in those moments, those seconds between my realities,

I am the most powerful woman alive.

I am capable of absolutely anything I can dream of achieving.

And that is why I keep trudging through the blackness.